Snap out of it!

Have you ever felt like the people you love are being brainwashed? That the people around you, whether you know them or not, have fallen victim to a new age way of not thinking for themselves? This has become my reality and for many of you thinkers out there, I think you'll agree. When did we become a society of taking some body's word for it? When did the act of rationality become a thing of the past? More and more I notice people with nothing, or close to it, are agreeing with the very people that make our meager way of life an everyday struggle. Maybe it's always been this way and now that I'm smart enough to recognize it, it's a lot more noticeable. I've been wrong before, but it seems as though thinking for ourselves has become to much work. I only have enough energy to be angry or disagree without knowing the facts. Beyond that you have to think for me! If shit's not going the way I want it to there must be someone to blame, besides me. I mean after all I've never made a bad decision in my life. Sound familiar? Maybe it's a Congressman's fault that an illegal has a job and I don't. There's no other reasonable explanation. Would a corporation who's main interest is bottom line hire an illegal to increase that very same bottom line? No, never! Would an entire news organization lie to me in order to gain my favor to further back it's political presence in the country? Couldn't be! Especially if that news organization is funded by politicians. If you haven't picked up on the sarcasm by now, kill yourself! There's no hope for the likes of you! What ever happened to arriving to a conclusion based on facts? Oh, that's right. That type of thinking is only for scientist, and since they haven't found proof of a god they can't know what they're talking about. If you're going to make a point, or encourage me to vote, have you're shit together! Don't think that hearsay and Tea Party rhetoric is going to be enough to shift my view one way or another. You've been brainwashed by the people at Fox news! Snap out of it. Our country society as a whole doesn't stand a chance if we don't come together. Granted we're not always going to agree and that's a part of what makes us human. But if we don't learn to come to a reasonable compromise, what's the point in offering a point of view at all? Is it really that strange that we should look out for each other? Is there something wrong with helping those in need? Why is it the silver spoons & safety net trust fund kids are the one who argue for survival of the fittest? Where would you be in life if you didn't have Mommy or Daddy to fall back on in times of need? You'd be right here with the rest of us, dealing with reality on a day to day basis. And in this reality we don't only look out for our best interests, we keep a sliver of reason in everything we do. If you can't think for yourself, & you're gullible to every conspiracy theory out there, you're really not worth the debate. Without reason, there's no reason for me to talk to you.

Misplaced Hate

Illegal immigrants get jobs & free health care because American companies & corporations HIRE WILLINGLY. If you don't like it the most effective way to express your views is through boycott of the industry that maintains this practice. If there was no opportunity people wouldn't cross the desert for days on end without water to be here. Illegal immigrants don't hold a gun to an employers head & force them to hire. Companies recruit cheap labor, it's the unwritten law of the land. Educate yourself. Don't be so close minded that you believe the bullshit that is spoon fed to you on a daily basis. Immigrants don't call the shots at the workplace, CEO's do. If they put rules in place to keep Americans employed, instead of making the bottom line top priority, you wouldn't have to worry about losing that cushy roofing job to an illegal. It seems prejudice is a part of American culture. It's time we focus that anger & frustration on the corporations & politicians who make you believe America first but practice bank account first. All sides should be held accountable! It's not just the right, left, or middle perpetrating the fraud. The wool has been pulled over our eyes for far too long! It's time to see the light! Rebuke the modern day social fire starter who wants you to hate the Mexican because he/she took your job, the charlatan that wants you to believe it is the white man's fault you'll never amount to nothing, the two faced racist who says the black community will always be poverty stricken. We are too smart to believe this bullshit! We are all one people, one tribe, one race, human! Don't let invisible class lines separate us from one another. We have been lied to! The car you drive doesn't make you who you are. The house you live in does NOT make you better than the next man or woman! Your possession's do NOT make you wealthy! It is the love you have for people that makes you a great human being! The government will always lie to you. The politicians on the right are no better or worse than the politicians on the left. The rich man is no better than the poor man he shudders to think of. We must stand up for the country we want NOT what our country wants for us! Twin Towers go down & we're supposed to shop!? We have been fooled by consumerism. Ethnic studies banned? Education budget cut backs? These are things we must stand against. We are all ethnic! The White man is NOT a native to this country! He is an immigrant from Europe! In all actuality the Mexicans were forced to go to war with this intruder, slaughtered on their land, & given a kick in the ass back to Mexico. The Native American & the Mexican inhabited this land long before the Spaniard or the French or the British. Now those days are over we must come together & realize our enemy is the one who wants us to shop at their stores so badly, he puts our mothers & fathers out of business by selling us the cheapest most toxic shit you can find in China! Our enemy wants us to keep our children in an overpopulated, underpaid, understaffed, school so our children won't learn to see the everyday crimes committed against their very way of living. Our enemy wants us to be complacent when our planet is destroyed one devastating accident at a time. Our enemy wants to stand back & watch as our brothers & sisters are shot down by police officers. Our enemy wants us to do nothing while our people are put in prison and sentenced to death without the proof beyond a reasonable doubt. Our enemy wants us to believe we are innocent until proven guilty, when we know we are guilty until proven innocent. If you don't see the clear picture our enemy has succeeded in blinding you from this reality. I'm not saying one of us is better than the next, I'm saying we're all in this together. We must stand up to corporate media & corporate politics which look to enslave us from creating our own destiny. Good luck! HAVE HEART!!

Life Of The Party (Live)

We put on one hell of a show!

Happy Father's Day!

I have put in my work as a father! No, I don't want props for doing what I should do, I just want my family to get their heads out of their asses!

Over a year ago my ex/mother of three of my four children threw her life away to a crack addiction. As a result of her drug use, & constant police contact for domestic violence, Child Protective Services (CPS) became involved. At the time of this unfortunate incident our three children were living with her. CPS eventually notified me of their involvement & intention to "relieve" us of our rights as parents.

Somehow CPS came to the conclusion that I was responsible for the mistreatment of my own children, simply by not evacuating the kids from this unsafe environment. In other words I should've removed my kids from this situation in order to avoid any legal actions that may have been taken against me. I accept responsibility for nothing! I am guilty of being a teenage parent.

I don't know if being older in this same situation would've helped me avoid such a drastic outcome, but hindsight is 20/20. I honestly had no idea I could just pick my children up from their mothers one day with no plans of returning them, ever. As a matter of fact, I have made an attempt to remove my children from the ignorant environment of their mother, & her mother as well, to only have the authorities called & the children returned while I was sent to jail.

Eventually CPS took us both to court. They all but severed my ex's rights from not only our children, but others she had after our separation. CPS asked us both to jump through a number of hoops in order to regain ground as the legal parents of our own children.

At first I was reluctant. I didn't think I had to do anything the courts asked of me. I felt that I didn't smoke crack & endanger the lives of my children, so why should my freedom be jeopardized. All I was guilty of was not kidnapping my children from their mom & letting her destroy her life on her own. Had I known I could legally take my children from their mom based on her actions I would have done it long before any of this took place. CPS looked at me like this information came in the pamphlets on how to be a parent, handed out in hospitals across the nation upon the birth of your child.

I had to submit to drug testing & parenting classes. I felt like I was back on probation because the mother of my children was an idiot. Drug testing was nothing. I dropped dirty for weed a few times then quit altogether for the sake of our well being as a family. Parenting classes were easy & rather entertaining at times. I completed the required amounts of parenting classes suggested & received a certificate.

Upon the one year mark of CPS involvement, we had a mediation. There were other mediation's in between but this one was the most critical. CPS was somewhat satisfied with my hoop jumps & disappointed by those of my children's mother, no surprise. They told her she could not see our kids without supervision conducted by their agency. They informed me I could continue to jump through their hoops for another year or so, or find guardianship through my family. My lawyer informed me that once the guardianship was established CPS would no longer be involved in my life, & I would no longer have the legal right as a parent to my children.

I felt like the sooner CPS was not involved, the better. I figured once my sister or mother had the kids we were good. It would be nothing for them to curtail the legal proceedings, get the kids back to a normal life, & before you know it I can be reunited with my children. Damn, was I wrong!

I never stopped to think my family would approach this situation from a beneficial standpoint. My sister could now claim more people on her taxes, & after filling a chapter 11, this was a gift in disguise. My mother, who in her old age, can't really work full time. Although my mom chooses to work as a nanny for a couple of families, she can't do anything that requires full-time labor. Now, with my boys at her place, my mother can extend her food stamp income & use more of her own money for the frivolous shopping & returning she seems to love so much.

So here I sit on Father's Day, with my three year old daughter, & her loving mother. I received a text from one of my two sons saying Happy Father's Day & called him to tell him I love him. I got no call from the older of my two boys & not a word from their sister, my oldest. I suggested to my mother that she bring the boys to my house so we can spend the day together. Mom didn't seem to like the idea of driving all the way to my house to drop off my boys. Although mom did invite me to my sister's house, on the other side of town, to go swimming. The lack of A/C in my car, & the middle of another Arizona summer make that drive seem unreasonable today. I usually make that trip with no complaint, but it's Father's Day & I thought it might be okay to ask for the children to spend time with me. Apparently not.

My sister seems to think my 13 year old daughter can do whatever she wants. Sis thought it was a bad idea for my daughter to have to spend time with her Dad on Father's Day. My daughter was asleep when I called & I asked my sister to have my daughter call me, but nothing still. Somehow it's appropriate for this little girl to wear thong under ware, according to my sister, but hang out with her Pops on Father's Day is unreasonable. What was I thinking!?

I feel like things can only get worse from this point on. My children don't recognize the need for discipline or structure in their life, as most tweens & teens don't. My mother & sister seem to think that spoiling these kids is the best thing for them. My sister already raised my 18 year old nephew this way, & has the holes in her walls & doors of her home to show how effective it is. I feel as if I am the perfect example of what happens when you spoil a child but my mom still makes the same mistakes with my boys.

My kids don't even really want to be around me. I know most kids their age start to stray from their parents at this age but this is when the adults in their life need to step in & guide them in the right direction. It seems my mother & sister couldn't be more happy doing the opposite. Now I know why the men they had children with are no longer in their lives. It is almost impossible to reach a common ground with these two women. What is a father to do?

Worst boss Ever!

I don't think I've ever had a foreman be as anti-safety as you! Never had a foreman care less about doing shit right than you! Not to mention your far right notions on America. BTW just cause you had a few civil conversations with a Black man, in the entire worthless span of the waste of breath you call life, doesn't mean you're not racist. I see right threw your flower ass and you're not fooling anybody! Don't look now there's a Hispanic inspector calling shots on your job site, and a Black president. Oh no, wtf are you gonna do!? I can't stand working with you! You think "The Secret" is the answer to life's problems? That's just another excuse to not give a shit about anyone but yourself, and back up all your delusional theories Thanks for having my back on the upcoming layoffs you fucking bitch! How is it you didn't know it was gonna happen, when our co-worker told me, the boss told you, he was going to start letting people go the day before I got laid off!? Consider yourself lucky if I see you in public and don't knock you out on sight. Have you walking funny on that prosthetic knee mother fucker!

You need some get right!

What happened to you!? You use to say,"If this is gonna have my name on it, I'm doin' it right!". Now you've got to be the most short cuttin', lollygaggin', clock milkin' ass mu'fucka I know! I've lost so much respect for you it hurts!! Granted when the economy went bust the owner of the co. took a few dollar$ away from your hourly wage, I know it sucks. Then instead of moving you up the ladder when shit got better, he hired some other goons. You got a third of what he took from you back, but that's only enough to make you care less. It seems like ever since you fucked up your back you really ain't worth a shit, homie! Now all you ever do is come up with ways to get as little done as possible in an 8-10hr period. What kinda equipment operator doesn't have keys to any of the equipment? Always tryin' to borrow mine and shit. Oh yeah you had to give 'em to your 2yr old or else he would've cried, & we can't have that! Now your keys are lost, again, for the same reason. Why don't you give the lil fucker another lollipop to calm him down? That's perfectly normal. Can't wait to get off work to go do somethin' stupid, or what? All you can muster up enough strength for these days, is gettin' on a piece of equipment, puttin' your feet up, and talkin' on the phone all fuckin' day long! You go and get a brand new blackberry then you wanna use my pay as you go phone. Always tryin' to hide somethin'. It's like your always in a hurry to do shit the wrong way. I know your Pops wasn't really there for you growing up, but have some common sense and be a man! Bringing your baby or your 9 & 11yr old boys to a drug deal... WTF is wrong with you? "Well I can't just leave 'em at the house!", Na you right you should bring 'em along to pick up sacks and smoke weed in front of 'em all the time, it's cool. Smh. You put up that dog run for your escape pit yet? "I had a kennel in the yard but I felt bad leavin' him in there, so I just threw it away.", you can't be serious! Na it's much better for the dog to jump the wall, get into the neighbors yard and fuck with their dogs, you right. It's a better idea for him to get out and get picked up by a lucky stranger and never seen again, or picked up by animal control, much better than puttin' him in a kennel so he doesn't cry or feel bad. You're a grown ass man in your 30s! If you were in your late teens or early 20s half of this shit might be a learning process but you have no excuse, you're just fuckin' stupid!